yeh i was gone for awhile... just busy with life! I just figured out how to blog from my blackberry and update photos... i am jazzed... that will be fun too... i do that on facebook alot..but i want to get back to blogging...
......stay tuned
Testing photo mobile blog
Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry
Testing photo mobile blog
Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry
well my last post was alitle dark and depressing and that was how i was feeling at the time... it was a rough beginning of the week.. so so so dang tired... today i am feeling good, especially for having only 5 hours of sleep and being startled awake by a 6am call that my friend was going to the hospital by ambulance and having no coffee - all in all.. doing well!
I did some investigating and started taking Acai berry (1500mg strength) on Wednesday... along with drinking some GOCHI juice (goji berry) - in my attempt to take care of myself... next week starts excercise (famous last words) - and I have to tell you - i feel great - i feel well rested, and i have some serious mental clarity, none of which i had before for quite some time.
I am still staying up late, running around being super busy - but the first night i tried the goji juice, i slept SO soundly - and when i woke up i felt refreshed... and alert... it's been a decade or so for me that i have felt so good... and this morning when i was startled awake - and had to get up at 6am - to rush to my friends house, i did it with ease...
i do feel some positive effects from this juice... some other positive effects that Jeff is benefiting from too.. {wink wink} serioulsy been awhile since i felt ALIVE.. loving it. and its only day 2 and i feel great - so i am hoooked on the juice. man...
fyi, my friend is ok... long story, cannot blog about it :) all is well...
Went to see billy joel and elton john last night, had a blast! looking forward to a fun weekend w. the fam!
my mind is scattered... it is like an autofocus lens, struggling to focus.. i can hear the cranks going back and forth... zoom... zoom...
i have many irons in the fire right now, which is great - i have been given many great opportunities recently - and i am jumping on them... but.. still.. i feel scattered... maybe i am just tired. if you saw the dark circles under my eyes, you would agree... maybe i am trying to do too much at once... maybe i am terrible at time management... which i think i am. I am great @ Crunch time... though.. but leading up to crunch time i am so easily distracted.... i can focus on the urgent... but i will focus on the non important urgent... first... which is not smart. i know.
i think i am just tired... feeling overwhelmed and a ton of pressure... money is ok now, it will be tight in a few months... i have some things that are going well... towards the tipping point... but i get scared... everyone so often, fear grips me and i cannot breathe...
i am staying up way too late... i need to sleep - that is what my problem is today.. and then i get overwhelmed and panicky when i don't sleep... i feel like every minute i am not doing something, i am failing...
i am working to find the balance of being home... new job of a househould... and building two businesses... and keeping my sanity to balance it all... how do super women do it?
tomorrow will be a new day... and I will be bright eyed and busy tailed... maybe a power nap is in order
As I edit through the galleries of pictures I've taken, every so often there is one picture in the group that I just love... It's not usually the one that is typical or the one I think other people may like, but for whatever reason, it captures "something" and speaks to me... these pictures are the the reasons I love taking pictures - this next pic says all of that to me.. maybe it is because I was a flower girl when I was 5, in my sister's wedding... maybe it is just the innocence captured in the moment, for whatever reason, I love this photo..
i am always behind the lens.. i tease Jeff that if I died, there would be no proof of my existence - since I am always behind the lens taking the photos.. i like it that way. i feel that i am not photogenic and it is a GREAT effort to get a good shot of me... just the facts as i see them. Since making that statement tho, Jeff has made more of an effort to take family snapshots with me in the mix...
I love taking photos.. its my passion... i love the process of finding that perfect shot to the part where i tweek the photo in photoshop and take it from ordinary to extraordinary... i could spend every waking hour doing this over and over again. I get a high from creating a work of art photo... still new to the idea that i am an artist... but loving it.
Well Hank wanted to take my photo today.. we were at the park and I was waiting for a family to show up for a photoshoot.. i did not do my hair or my makeup - but i agreed to let Hank take the pic... knowing I would delete it afterwards... as I never ever take a good photo.. in my own mind...
Well here is his photo and actually i like it.. i was thrilled... this is how people must feel when i take their picture and show them the finished product... what a thrill for me to be in front of the lens... and to see my son has a great eye...
ok, so i am keeping this blog for myself...
but we will have a family blog @ http://azpetersonzoo.blogspot.com/
Jeff's stepdad is going to Afghanistan for a year so we created a family blog so he can keep in touch w. us.. Jeff and the boys will also be updating the family blog as well - so bookmark that one in your favorites....
Recent Comments